Be honest with yourself, even with the lies. The Big Lies™ that lay in front of you are OK and can actually even benefit a person in the longterm. Believe them. But what you can't stomach is the tiny stuff, the little lies you're still digesting. Embrace all that you do even as that man on the horizon gets smaller and smaller. Don't trick yourself into thinking you're better or worse than you truly are, and don't try to erase your history. It's impossible. Don't lie. If you do The Big Lies™ will scamper away into the darkness and you'll never see them again.

I am a failure at everything

"MoTA (Museum of Taco Arms)," png 2015

Good morning. It's raining here in Philadelphia at 9:02 and 12 seconds in the AM. It's a Wednesday. I love you.

Time to Die

I just said to my dog, in a kind of aggressively happy voice as he was semi-asleep on the sofa, "Hey there, buddy!" and he flinched as if I was, like, yelling at him? I think I came at him a little too hot. I didn't mean it. He's wearing a pumpkin dog shirt for Halloween. In other news, why do I even have this website + a presence on every social media? Feels really meaningless rn. Like I could just post this on Facebook. Why not? What's the point? What am I doing?

FOR EXAMPLE

On Saturday night, I watched a horrible football game on my deck and got drunk with my dog

The night sort of got progressively worse for the RU collegiate football squad and also for myself. I counted ten alcoholic beverages in consumed in total, which is four too many im... The TV-on-deck experiment was a rousing success, however. I can't get the ABC signal to come in via the air antennae inside, and the Watch ESPN channel is the flakiest of all my internet feeds via the Roku. So this was a major win-win. I will probably set this up again for the NBA Finals / any other ABC program I want to watch live (weather permitting).

☚ The Ballad of Whirr & Daniel Murphy: Context, Hate, Actual Harm & Second Comings ☛

As a self-identifying "alt" (alternative), I feel it's safe to say my life would've been different if I had gone to the Alternative Middle Years school. My middle years were so less alternative than I desired.

An alternate take on the instantly famous Jose Bautista bat flip

When I worked for an oil shipping company ~8 years ago, I would spend my time on the internet exclusively going down Wikipedia rabbit holes. I would just hit "random article" and click links that interested me. I would do this for hours at a time. I think I felt safe on those webpages because they were 'educational' and it was just the one site, so if they were in fact checking my internet history it wouldn't look as bad or something. I later moved onto rss than Twitter than rss again as my preferred content consumption feeds but now I'm wondering if the Wikipedia model wasn't actually the best way. I dig the chance aspect which allows for the learning of things you wouldn't ever have otherwise. I actually just downloaded the Wikipedia app so wish me luck. 

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